Decisions …………… what next?

On the 30th April 2019 I was made redundant from my role with a company I have worked for for the last 18 years……to put this into perspective I have a 19 year old daughter so I have worked for them for nearly as long as she has been on the planet!!

Was it a shock? No

Does that make it easier to deal with? No, not at all. Finding out that you will not be going to work when you get up tomorrow is a huge shock to the system. Someone I worked with described it as being institutionalised when you have worked for a company that long. It is all you know and is the biggest part of your daily routine

I don’t think I have ever experienced as many emotions as I have in the last few weeks since finding out that this was coming. Sadness at the loss of something we all worked so hard on – believe me we have achieved some amazing results over the years. Anger about the fact it has come to this. Fear for what the future will hold, confusion about what to do next……I’m too old to start a new career, who will employ me? I’m not good enough, I don’t know what to do?? It’s been a challenge to also help those I was working with to deal with these emotions too. I can only say at this time that I am so grateful to have worked with such an amazing group of people.

Two days later I feel a lot calmer about the situation…….I still don’t know what I will do next, but I do know that it will be what’s right for me.